Re: [PyrNet-L] Lexi's puppies & me.

[Jack & Charlotte Perry <pyreau@erols.com>]

Hi Judith,
We have missed hearing from you, and our prayers are with you.  How exciting
about Lexi's expected pups.  I always worry myself sick when one of my dogs
is expecting.....even after all these years.  Still, the girls always do
just fine.  I learned with out first litter to intervene as little as
possible.  With the first litter, we did so much for the pups that the
mother decided that they were our responsibility and not hers!  We are all
here for any help we can give!  Just think what fun you will have with those
cute pups!  Do you have a digital cameral so we can see pictures?
Charlotte

judith diamond wrote:

> Dearest pyr friends,
>     Please her my tears, and anguished apology up front for having
> gotton myself where I am in regards to being so very ill- prepared with
> my darling preganant Lexi. These day's, I live in freqent impending doom
> and belly
> terror and sleepless nights, having to cancel huge commitments due to my
> manic deppressive illness & Lexi coming into heat a month earlier.  This
> illness has phases; hyper-
> mania, deep, dark deppression and normal phases to it.
>      My worst fears have come true. Until now I have been very worried
> about
> becoming  the breed & show person that I have always long to be because
> I knew that I could'nt trust my mental illness. The
> how's and why's, even with my medication diligence still makes it
> impossible to predict when I and for how long I will be the happy,
> compentent, reliable and type of human being that I really am.
>     I have a virtually and sometimes uncontrollable major
> mental/physical illness, or
> disapility, that some call bypolar illness. I as one of them call myself
>
> a Manic Deppressive because it does not sugar coat the truth. It has had
>
> me on and off by the throat for months, I am in it now and is devasating
>
> me and my ability to be the very best breeder and pyr parent for my
> beloved pregnant  Lexi and care for her and her upcoming little ones
> that I know I am when I am not in the yuky cycles of it.
>      I have been paralized with my ability & desire to use of this
> priceless to help walk me through questions and such.
>     Help me please? Lexi is only near a month away from
> whelping.
>     Please, at this point malredy my phone bills are high and at
> this point my  telephone pyr friends/breeders is not enough because I
> need all of you wise and experienced loving pyr people.
> They, really were never going to be all I used. I had so hoped and
> planned to be in regular commuication here at least 2 months ago. For I
> consider Pyr-net to have invaluable resources.
> I think that most of us are extrodinary people for loving our pyrenees
> who are an  extraordinary,amazing and very, very pyrperfect.
> I do not know how hard it will be for me to cope and how much I can cope
> with from day to day. Sometimes I can feel imobilized. I must be willing
> to go to any lenth to be helped for my
> illness. There is a *slim* chance I will have to go to a private mental
> hospital for a few days. I am working very hard to insure that if that
> happens, it will be this week, long before the pups are born. And
> fighting with this
> Manic monster so that will not have to happen.
>     I adore Nicloe Sharp & Janet Jo Roberts Weymouth. They have been
> like family and have offered, if neccessary one or the other will be
> here for me and or the precious puppies, if neccessary. Thank God!
>      I should add here; that for 10 days I have been well enough to
> fight
> my way back to health more and more. I  am using my internist
> until I go back into full therapy, or just medication visit's. The
> pyschitrist I am in communication will be setting me up with an
> evaluation, hopefully he'l'l accept me as his patient. The evaluation
> may not be for 2 weeks, At his office.
>      The final and  apology is about my not responding a
> month ago to my urgent post for help. I think I may have posted here,
> maybe not. I had gotton my answer that Friday
> or Saturday away from the list and fled to See Carol Baxter in Canada
> Monday. Even tough everything went topsy turvy in my
> life also due to Lexington going into heat when she did, by then I was
> computer paralized and couldn't respond. I'll tell you why so maybe some
>
> of you would't mind giving me a solution.
>     I am the kind of person through upbringing, kindness, politeness or
> being a general sucker, that I feel selfish posting help just for me &
> an occassional post only, to help other's. I get wrapped up in feeling
> that it is the only fair & right thing to do to answer everyone's
> posting on their dead pyr, sick pyr, brags about thier show pyr, and
> other times I know I might help & do. I end up spending enormous time &
> energy on pyr online newsletters sacrificing other thing's in my
> life.Then I get addicted
> to writing Jonah & Lexi stories and of course, *they* have to be spelled
>
> and written almost perfectly. Then I have to go offline for days, weeks
> or months and then I  feel estraged from my wonderful friends so get
> paralized &
> don't stay in touch at all. It seems perhaps silly to some of you
> perhaps. I can understand why. There apparenty many people that get like
>
> this online though.
>     To capsilize my breeding homework has fallen way behing and I hope
> that I may call upon you for help.
>             I thank you for being who and what you are.
>     My very best to you in pyr-spirit and in all the good spirits.
>     Judith-Lexi & Jonah
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